For the last few days, after my first solo trip abroad, I've been having these crazy cravings. Everywhere I look, there's a chance for a quick drink, like it's no big deal. I'm sitting in a cafe now, trying to get some work done, surrounded by endless "quick drink that won’t hurt you" possibilities, and it's driving me nuts. I can literally feel my body screaming for a drink. I don't even know what triggered this since I've been pretty much cruising sober for the past few weeks. I guess this is what it's like to feel like an addict.
I can only imagine how hardcore drug addicts feel when their cravings hit. It’s painful.
And it makes me feel weak. The thing is, I've been feeling a lot of positive changes lately – clearer mind, better sleep, much calmer than usual (I’ll write a separate post on that...). But now, out of nowhere, it hits like a tsunami, and it’s a game of strength – me vs. me.
But really, it’s not about willpower. Willpower is overrated. It’s about truly understanding that alcohol has no positive impact on my life. I’ve realized that drinking isn’t just a momentary slip; it’s a total detractor from all the progress I’ve made.
The clarity, the better relationships, the sense of control – these are the real perks of staying sober. Alcohol never really added anything valuable. It was just a crutch, an illusion of relief that did more harm than good. Getting this is key to my journey.
Cravings remind me that I'm human, that I have weak spots. But they also show me how far I've come and why making the right choices is so important. It’s not about fighting temptations with sheer willpower but about making smart decisions that keep me on track.
This journey is more than just avoiding alcohol. It’s about figuring out my triggers, finding healthier ways to deal with stress, and building a stronger version of myself. It’s about learning to handle life without leaning on crutches.
So, here I am, sitting in this cafe, with all these temptations around, choosing to write instead of drink. It’s a small win but a big deal. Each choice like this adds up, building a foundation of resilience and self-control. And I know that with each passing day, the cravings will get easier to handle. Until then, I’ll keep fighting, keep choosing sobriety, one day at a time, knowing that alcohol adds nothing to my life.
ODAAT my friends
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